A New Pinnacle In Life
In the sad column, I would list events like having my first bicycle stolen, having a pet die, breakups, and losing my mother to cancer.
In the happy column would be events like birthday parties, love, first kisses, marrying my wife, and watching my son be born.
To a person who has yet to experience some of these things, it would seem that getting married and becoming a father would be absolute best things that could possibly happen to a man.
They would be wrong
A child has a magical bond with it's mother from the moment he or she is born that begins well before.
That bond is different with the father though. It isn't instant and it takes time to develop - to nurture - to grow. As a father, you are not the one who the child grew inside of. Your heartbeat is not the one whose rhythm is what that child spent several months listening to. Your smell is not what that child knows - yet. Perhaps it could be argued, though, that the time it takes to develop that bond is what makes it special in its own right.
Today, I feel as if that bond is finally truly beginning to blossom. Over the last several months, I have been watching the way my son hugs my wife and that has brought so many smiles to my face, and admittedly a tiny touch of jealousy. It has been amazing to watch him put down his favorite red ball and crawl over to her. Once there, he climbs on top of her and envelops her arm and neck in his chubby little arms while intentionally nuzzling his head into the curve that is the separation of shoulder and neck. Its one of those hugs that is the most genuine thing you can ever witness in life and something that you can only imagine the feelings it must bring when it happens to you.
Well, today, it happened to me. It was a moment that I wish could have lasted a lifetime. Down went his favorite truck and over to me he came. He climbed onto my lap and wrapped those arms around my arm and neck. He nuzzled his perfectly warm head and golden blonde hair into the curve that forms the shoulder and neck. He gave a little squeeze and just a few seconds later, he was off to play with his truck once again.
This is a new pinnacle in life.
If you have experienced it, you understand.
If you have not, then you are unable to truly understand it but I hope that it's something you will one day get experience. When you do, everything else will no longer matter except for that moment.